Why We Cut

We (borderlines) occasionally cut ourselves because we are hurting so bad, and no one knows how bad we hurt, that we cut ourselves just to somehow externalize how we feel. Like we could never communicate the pain we have (because it is too big, and people don't understand) and also because how could we feel so much without it somehow being visible from the outside. There are other times when we have cut ourselves because we were really hurting and it comforted us, but then there were those times when we wanted to say "See how bad I hurt!"...like it is a way of communicating and expressing the extent of our pain....words just are not powerful enough.